Feeling a bit blah

7 May 2018

Hi and Welcome to Kylie's Life


As most of you know I recently lost my job, and well I am feeling more down in the dumps.  I apply for all of these jobs and I am just getting nowhere with them.  You don't even hear back from unless you are shortlisted.  I have applied to local take-away shop, the local supermarket, Government jobs, call centre jobs and there is nothing out there.  Hubby said remember that you are competing against people who have degrees that are doing the jobs that you want and are qualified for.  I even thought about starting my own business - slight problem is that I am not crafty, and the business will take a while to get up and running, I have no idea what business I could do.
I can barely keep my house running in a state that when somebody says they are coming around I don't have to go through and do a speed clean and close doors because I am embarrassed for people to see.

May be I should look a the skills I have and really focus on using this to my advantage - the thing is I don't really know what I am good at or what skills I have - other than being good on the phone and being god at Facebook, I came up with the crazy idea of being the Australian Martha Stewart - then realise that she is crafty, can cook and had started her own catering company before she branched out to what she is doing now.
I think that it is time to face the fact that while I do have some good ideas I am just not made to start my own company, I am more suited to working for somebody else and being a cog in the machine.

This post is really quite depressing isn't it - sorry this is just how I am feeling

Toodles XXXXX

MIA, am I worthy and self doubt?

4 June 2018

Hi and Welcome to Kylie' s Life

Sorry I have been away for the majority of last week, I had a pretty rough week to start with I had somebody run into the back of my car.  The damage to his car was very little, to my car was a heap and he even said that he was looking the other way and he wanted to know why I was upset.  I was more upset because I am a 40 something year old women and for the first time in my driving life this is the first new car I have ever had ( I got it a month before I lost my job) and to make matters worse I don't think he has any insurance so I am panicking a bit because I would like to get my car fixed and being that he ran into me he should have to pay for it.

I have been getting more and more worried about getting a new job, I am applying for plenty - 6 a day and I am not getting anywhere.  I understand that I am competing against so many other people and only the short listed candidates will be contacted but it is starting to get me down and I am starting to feel like I am not worthy.  I like working and I also like being a SAHM, I like the financial freedom that working brings but I also like the fact that I can be home when the kids get home and the fact that I am able to get decent meals on the table.
If anybody has ideas of how I can do both work and be a SAHM please let me know because combining the both would be a dream.

Toodles XXXXX