Feeling Clucky

4 Feb 2016

Hey folks

How are you today?

Yes as you can guess by the title I am feeling somewhat broody, now I get like that every now and again and it passes when I add up how much it would cost just for the basics - cot, change table, pram.  Having a baby is not cheap, and I am not sure how we did it before.  Because my two are so close together how did we manage?  If I ever went down that path I would go cloth nappies at home and only use disposables at night and when we went out due to the convenience factor and all of the stuff you need to take with you when you go out, I like the fact that I don't need a massive bag when I go out, don't need 8 changes of clothes and the most important thing that I like -is the fact that I have a full nights sleep, that I can drink coffee, that I can drive myself wherever I want to go and the plus my hips, back, knees don't hurt and I don't have to get up 8 times a night to pee.

What I miss is the utter dependance now that might sound completely mental but my kids are getting older so they are able to do stuff without me having to be there, are able to think for themselves, they still like to cuddle up and get snuggly with me but it is different.
Babies are just so cute and they are like little dolls - I have the pictures to prove how badly I was dressed.  Also I kinda think that if ever there ever was a number 3 it would be a chance to do what I didn't do before and do it properly this time.  Yes I have raised my kids with manners, to wear clean clothes etc, what I am talking about is not read any of the books, be more prepared, more organised, exercise more so that having the baby is not so hard on me.  I suffered from PND and the Dr wanted to put me back into hospital to give me a rest being stubborn I said no because I didn't want people to know there was something wrong, so I will follow my own advice if I went down that path again - rest, self care and don't be afraid to ask for help.

Now with that all being said I am off to go and drink a cup of coffee while it is hot ( something you can't do with a baby), vacuum the floor, dust and then get on with my sewing - which is what you can do with a baby but not without stopping heaps!!!!