Does absence make the heart fonder???

9?3?2015

Hello in there it is me out here,

Yes I have been gone for a while, did you miss me?

Hmm I better explain why I have been gone for so long.

I have been trying to gain employment now that is not as hard as it sounds but I will put it this way I was even turned down by McDonalds.
Yes it is true I think the fact that I could only work Monday - Friday during school hours has something to do with it and while I accept that what I don't accept is the fact being a mother, Darren and I decided that I would stay home and be the primary care giver.

 Now running a house, looking after two children ( who are not even 12 months apart) doesn't seem to qualify me for much, what is even worse when I went online to see how much I would be worth pay wise, I was asked to check my spelling and make sure it was a real job. Now at this point being that McDonalds didn't want me, the website asked me if being a mother and housewife was a real job I did what any self respecting person did.  I had a damn good cry, picked myself up and set to work printing out resumes and handing them out, I had one place suggest I go back to TAFE ( junior college) and get a extra qualification, I had we will keep it on file and the we are not looking for anybody right now but when we are you will be the first on our list. The applications that I sent in on-line, well I haven't heard back from them what would be nice is a response to say yes we received your application but at this time we don't have any positions available.  I even advertised on Gumtree to do house cleaning, so far I have had three people contact me two cancelled and I haven't heard back from the third person. So it is not like I am not applying for work but even then I still feel like I am not making a contribution.

Yes I know I am looking after two kids and a house, but I like working, I like being able to talk to different people and have my day change and present some challenges to me. I have loved being a stay at home mum but is now time for me to claim back my identity and not just be Carrissa and Oscars Mum.  I know it sounds like this is one big whinge session and please do understand that I am grateful for been able to have to opportunity to stay home and look after my children and not have to work until they are in full-time school.
I am not going to give up on finding work, just keep wondering when I am going to catch a break