Saturday 23/3/2019

Hi in there it is me out here

Well it has been a while since I wrote and there is a good reason for that.  I am once again gainfully employed in a full time role.  So that has been taking up my time, with that full time role does come the down sides of having to give up some of the stuff enjoyed doing.

However with that being said I do need to continue or retake up activities that I enjoyed, so that is what I am doing.  I have decided that I am going to start this blog gain and I may even start up my You Tube channel.  So I will fill you in on what we have been up to since I last wrote

Ok so when I last wrote I had lost my job - you don't need to know the specifics of why it happened and if I am perfectly honest I have no inclination to tell you as there are some things that I would like to keep private and I don't need to be made feel bad about that.

So two months after I lost my job I got a new one - it is for a multi-national company so I am a small cog in a big machine.  Now you may think that is a very cynical view but it is true - I am one of the small people that helps that machine work.  Do I plan on being there forever..no  I don't.  Do I want to move ono other things yes I do because frankly I think that is human nature - wanting what we can't have and wanting to better ourselves. I have set myself a goal and I have just about reached it, do I know what is around the corner..no I don't but I believe that we are doing what we need to right in this moment to get to the next part of our lives.

Now if that means that I move into a different department for the same company then so be it or if I go to another company doing something different then that is ok too.

Now as you know I have 2 children - both of them are now teens.  I have a 13 year old and a 12 year old and to say that it is a easy transition is a lie....no wonder my hair is falling out and getting thinner by the day!!  My daughter (13) has been diagnosed as lactose intolerant so that is a big adjustment, she is finally starting to make some sensible choices and deal with the fact this a lifestyle change that is going to be with ther for the rest of her life.  It is also forcing us as a family to look at what we eat and the amount of junk food that we eat.  You see it was a regular occurrence on a Friday night to have pizza however now that she is not able to have the cheese it is meaning that we have to have other things to eat.

I am having to look at the ingredients list of the food that I buy, the up side of this is that we are eating less junk food a, more fruit and veg.

My son (12) has started high school and he is finding the transition hard - is having a great deal of trouble with the fact that he has more homework, the teachers are expecting that you have your work done and the homework done and are not going to hold your hand and coax you into doing it.  So we have had to set certain rules and take away certain privileges so that he is able to achieve that standard - he has said that he wants to join the Navy and do Electrical Tech.  So to do that he needs to achieve certain grades, now I do fully expect him to change his mind on his career choice more than once before the end of the month - depending on what his BFF decides to do but for now we are going Navy.

I have cut my hair off - it is short and I mean short ( think Audrey Hepburn short) and to be honest I don't regret it at all.  Normally I do regret my decision - I loved my long hair but this time I am more at peace with it that I am normally.

So from here it is onto greater things - like doing this blog and maybe transitioning it to a Vlog.  Getting my house in order and reaching my ultimate goal of my dream house, my dream oven and staying home to look after my family and be there to do the things that I used to do for them.  Now I hear you ask how am I going to achieve that and to be honest I haven't the faintest idea but I do know one thing until I am given the chance to try and do this I am never going to know if I can.

Toodles XXXX

Feeling a bit blah

7 May 2018

Hi and Welcome to Kylie's Life


As most of you know I recently lost my job, and well I am feeling more down in the dumps.  I apply for all of these jobs and I am just getting nowhere with them.  You don't even hear back from unless you are shortlisted.  I have applied to local take-away shop, the local supermarket, Government jobs, call centre jobs and there is nothing out there.  Hubby said remember that you are competing against people who have degrees that are doing the jobs that you want and are qualified for.  I even thought about starting my own business - slight problem is that I am not crafty, and the business will take a while to get up and running, I have no idea what business I could do.
I can barely keep my house running in a state that when somebody says they are coming around I don't have to go through and do a speed clean and close doors because I am embarrassed for people to see.

May be I should look a the skills I have and really focus on using this to my advantage - the thing is I don't really know what I am good at or what skills I have - other than being good on the phone and being god at Facebook, I came up with the crazy idea of being the Australian Martha Stewart - then realise that she is crafty, can cook and had started her own catering company before she branched out to what she is doing now.
I think that it is time to face the fact that while I do have some good ideas I am just not made to start my own company, I am more suited to working for somebody else and being a cog in the machine.

This post is really quite depressing isn't it - sorry this is just how I am feeling

Toodles XXXXX

MIA, am I worthy and self doubt?

4 June 2018

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Sorry I have been away for the majority of last week, I had a pretty rough week to start with I had somebody run into the back of my car.  The damage to his car was very little, to my car was a heap and he even said that he was looking the other way and he wanted to know why I was upset.  I was more upset because I am a 40 something year old women and for the first time in my driving life this is the first new car I have ever had ( I got it a month before I lost my job) and to make matters worse I don't think he has any insurance so I am panicking a bit because I would like to get my car fixed and being that he ran into me he should have to pay for it.

I have been getting more and more worried about getting a new job, I am applying for plenty - 6 a day and I am not getting anywhere.  I understand that I am competing against so many other people and only the short listed candidates will be contacted but it is starting to get me down and I am starting to feel like I am not worthy.  I like working and I also like being a SAHM, I like the financial freedom that working brings but I also like the fact that I can be home when the kids get home and the fact that I am able to get decent meals on the table.
If anybody has ideas of how I can do both work and be a SAHM please let me know because combining the both would be a dream.

Toodles XXXXX

Can we do it? I don't think we can

22 May 2018

Good Morning


Sorry I have been MIA for a couple days, yesterday I had a interview - I hope that I get through to the second round fingers crossed.  I was applying for more jobs when it occurred to me that I am kinda wanting to be a housewife and stay at home and look after my family.  Financially we couldn't afford for me to do it unless we win lotto ( like every other adult in Australia is wishing for the same thing) so until the lotto win I am going to be trying to juggle both.
Don't get me wrong I have nothing against working Mothers - I think they are fabulous and would love to know how they do it all, I also think that being a SAHM is important and I would love to be the be the Mum who is able to Stay at Home but also bring in a wage - no I am not looking into party plan I have been down that road and it ended up costing me more money than I made.  No I need to figure out how I can make my Home Craft a wage earner and that means me putting on my thinking cap.

So the Royal wedding is over - and my family is relieved until I told them that there is another in October and that I will be watching that.
I think the Royal family are fabulous and would give my right arm to meet the Duchess of Cambridge and her children and the Queen.  Prince Phillip would be a hoot and a half to be around him, from what I have read and seen on TV he has a very dry sense of humour and I think we would get on very well - oh well it is nice to dream, I think my husband has come to realise that the Royal Family are my "cat nip" and as I write this I can see him shaking his head and rolling his eyes ( he's not here but if I told him this that is the reaction I will get)....come to think of it this is the only thing that I am slightly obsessed with.  To meet them would make my life and I would like photos to prove that I had met them, I would love to be able to really sit and talk to the Queen about so many things and ask advice from a person who has seen so much change and has managed to remain so loved by the people she has pledged her life to.


So on Sunday i organised my Pantry - and yes I forgot to do the before and after photo's so my next organising project project I will post photos.  The kids keep saying that I have organised it so well and that they can see stuff and I can see what we have.  I think this came about because I am going to need to bake and be careful about what we are eating so that Miss 12 doesn't get sick, you see most of what I bought has milk solids in the ingredients list and being that she is Lactose Intolerant a lot of the foods can't be bought.  Now you may think that I am somewhat over reacting and that is a fair call because maybe I am but to put in to context we have being doing the rounds of DR's and Specialists for 6 years before we moved to Melbourne to be told by the Specialist that we saw that it could be 1 of 2 things - either an allergy to fructose or a allergy to lactose, the fact that I have been giving her Milk, Cheese, Cream and other Dairy products all of this time is kinda a burden that I am going to have to live with.  I have been making my daughter sick and that doesn't sit well at all so I am going to try and make it better by being extra protective and double checking what she is eating so that she can start getting better.  I am new to having to check the ingredients list on food but you know what it has certainly made me re-evaluate what we are putting into our mouths and how as the mother it is my responsibility to make sure that my family are eating the right foods.


Toodles XXXXXXXX

This is me

15 May 2018


Hi and welcome to Kylies life

Well it has been a long time since I was on here, and well it is going to be a warts and all post today.


As you know we moved to Melbourne a year ago, the transition was difficult I didn't have a job to come to and the kids found it hard.  As you know Hubby was promoted and well the office was in Melbourne so we packed up and moved, in hind sight I should have applied for a Job so that I had one to come to.

Well I did find a job,and well I thought that it was going to be the perfect fit, as it turns out it wasn't.  Now the industry I was in I still feel a passion for but the environment was highly stressful and the moral in the office wasn't good.  I did enjoy the time I was there to a certain point, the thing was I was often leaving before the kids got up and getting home after the kids got to bed.  I was starting to feel like I new the people I worked with better than my children as I spent more time there. Yes the pay check certainly helped and I am trying to find another role that I am able to do that provides the same of money and that I truly enjoy.

So while I am currently unemployed I am going to be working on getting my house back in order and getting back to baking and making delicious meals for my family.  Speaking of food Miss 12 has been diagnosed as Lactose Intolerant, and she is finding it very hard to deal with.  Now I am actually having to stop and think about what I put in the shopping trolley and what I am cooking.  We have ben doing the adjusted eating plan for a couple of weeks and she has said that she is starting to feel better already.  There is a tablet called Lacteeze that she can take if we are out and is wanting to have a treat, but I am not wanting to start trying that just yet I would like to get her body used to not having Lactose.


Is it wrong that I am a 40 something woman that is wanting to overhaul her wardrobe so that she is able to dress like the Duchess of Cambridge? She is so elegant and seems to nail it every time she puts a foot out the door.  Yes I understand that she has the budget to look like she does and has a hairdresser on speed dial and I don't have that, I wear glasses, am a-lot shorter than her and probably weigh more ( I am fairly sure that I weigh more)  The only thing that is the same is the hair colour !!!! so I am thinking that I am needing to loose some weight - not just so I can look fab in dresses similar to what she wear, but more for me and I am thinking the best way to start is by getting up and walking Patterson.  I am sure that he will be grateful for the attention.

I have advised the family that on Saturday night that I will be watching the Royal Wedding - I am even recording it just incase I fall asleep.  Even if I don't fall asleep I will be watching it again, I am watching it more for Prince Harry as I do have a soft spot for him.  He is a bit of a lad hes the one that if his mate was passed out cause he had drunk to much would be in charge of shaving his eyebrows off and drawing them back in with a sharpie so the guy had to wear a beanie till his eyebrows grow back!!! It appears that Harry is very open and relaxed now in the public eye and I really do hope that he and Meghan make a real go of it.  From what I have seen of the two of them together it looks like they are the pieces of the puzzle that fit, I am sure that she will make a wonderful addition to the Royal Family and will be able to hold her and take on engagements without Harry.  So with that being said I am going to go and have a cup of tea and fold my washing - oh to have staff do that for me :)


Toodles

Clothes Shopping

25 November 2017

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Yesterday I went clothes shopping - I needed to buy office attire as I don't have any, well it wasn't the easiest experience and I remembered why I hate clothes shopping.  Now I am not average height ( thats the first problem), second I am now classed as a average size ( 16) now with that being said every size 16 isn't cut as a 16 and some are bigger some are smaller.  So after many hours of wandering around the shops and with a pounding head-ache I came home.  Yes I did find some clothes and I also got some shoes.......shhhh hubby doesn't know about that as I didn't show those bags.

 But I have to say the shop that I thought would have the most work wear didn't, the store that I thought would have heaps of good sales didn't and the clothes that I did get have made me want to join a gym so that I can fit into the mould that has been pushed by fashion designers and the clothing buyers for the stores.
 I now understand why many people shop on the internet - so they don't have to go to the shops and try and fit into clothes that are made for ladies who are tall and slim. I would like to see the designers take models of many sizes and body shapes  into account when they put a collection together, but then if that was done they would loose money and would go out of business.  I guess that is why I have started wearing more and more rockabilly dresses - there are some companies who dresses specifically for us plus size girls.

So on Monday I start my full time job, this will be my first ever full time job - unless you count staying home and looking after the kids.  Now I am excited but I am also terrified, I am terrified because it is unknown, I am going to be taken out of my comfort zone and I am going to have to let the reigns ( on the kids) go and trust them to get themselves sorted. Now being that my 2 can't remember to brush their teeth in the morning ( I have to remind them) I think that I have cause for worry.

So on my last weekend as a lady of leisure I am getting all of the laundry done and trying to have some time off - its not working. Yes I am getting the laundry done, but time off I guess I am never really off duty.  So as I type this I remember that I have washing in the machine that needs to be pegged out and school uniforms to wash.

I will try and post during the week but please be patient if I don't - the weekend is looking very good for posting.

Toodles XXXXXX

UMMMMMMMM

23 November 2017


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Proud Mummy Moment, I found out yesterday that Carrissa's reading and Comprehension age is 15 she is reading 3 years above her actual age - now that is bloody brilliant  and I couldn't have been prouder of her.  She is in the top three at school in that area, maths on the other hand well we won't discuss that as it is kinda disappointing but learning is hard and not everybody gets it.  The switch will flick for her one day and then all of the concepts she struggles with will become so much clearer.

OK so here is the deal, about a month ago I applied for a Full time job, went for he interview was told I had the job and then there was nothing - it is a Government Job.  So I rang them last week and well the contract had changed but I still had the job and I start on the 27 of this month - that is on Monday.

   First of all I am freaking out cause I am going to be working full time, secondly I am freaking out because I am not sure how I am going to be able to mange to do the following - keep up with the laundry, ironing, keeping the house clean, the baking, cooking of the meals. I have never worked full time before - it has always been part time so that I can be home for the kids, and still do everything.  So for all of the Mum's out there that do work full time how the hell do you do it? I have been getting up earlier than I usually do so that my body is in the routine and is able to cope with the fact that I am starting work at 8am - will have to be out the door by 7am because of the traffic.

So I am rushing around trying to get stuff done this week so that come Monday morning I can leave the house knowing that I have left Hubby and the kids with not much to do.  My head is in a fog, I don't know where to start and I need to start thinking logically about it all.  So with that being said, I am going to start the laundry write my shopping list and menu plan.

Toodles Kylie XXXXXX